CyberRanger69

Dammed in my own suffering from chemical imbalance, guilt, and grief. Of a system of the great madness of mankind. And the insanity of the universe it's self. Dammed by my own hands, actions, and words to great to bear. Dammed because I have a soul and right to choose. I choose the red pill. I choose to not be asleep anymore. I am awakened. The ONE. My only sin was looking for the truth. I choked on the apple I eat. And never eat of it again. And everything I eat now seems like ashes to me. I was born to live in the fire. It is the only thing I know. I am part demon, part angel, and part human all in one being. And both male and female to. I am that which stands in the fire and dances between the darkness and the light. I consume the air like fire. I dance on the wind like the embers of a long dead star. I am made of the air, earth, wind, and fire that God make me out of to be. I can not be easily put out. I keep coming back like some sort of half living, half dead being. I have been blessed by water, fire, ice, and lightning. I am the one to stand against it all. A burning bridge that never stops burning of Christ. What am I? I am. That is all that matters.

I was born assigned male at birth in Dunoon Scotland because father was station there on a Nuclear Sub tender in the US Navy tell we return after 5 years living there for me. Only things was I was never a male in my mind. The set rules in my head was all female for me. And I fought hard to be a boy at first as I should. I was always being bullied, beat up, and pick on badly because I was different from the other CIS children my age. And then I hit puberty or it hit me like a big truck. And my body tried to become female to. They did test on me and found out I was a genetically female and a XX male and intersex. I was an assigned male that had female DNA. One of my X try to act like a Y and make me seem like a boy at first. And so I got assigned male at birth. Only to end up a bit of both in the end. I have chosen female now as that is what my mind is the most. Though I am both really. Yet it is my choice and I choose the one my mind is able to handle being the most. It was my choice and as not been an easy choice. Choosing to be male was only causing me more suffering than I can handle. And female the choice very little for me. And, so I have to go by what does not hurt me as much to be. Some might not understand. Some might try to hurt or kill me as they have before. That is better than me trying to die all the time because I can not be what they want me to be. I have to break the chains and live as the woman I know I am and always will be. No matter the price I pay. Because the price I pay is too great otherwise of my soul.